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Friday, June 12, 2009

Break Free


I want to break free of these chain in society
That binds me not to do wot i want to
These relations; These rules that governs
The way our life is supposed to be

No I dont want u to stop me
To live my life the Way
I wanted to Live it

I wanna break free of the relation
That makes me sober all the time
These emotions and these drama
I want to run away frm all these shits
No I dont want u to stop me
To live my lifethe Way
I wanted to Live it

They made me leave my pleasures for them
They discarded my happiness
They turned their blind eyes to my desire;
Despaired me and set my world on fire

No I dont want u to stop me
To live my life the Way
I wanted to Live it

How cudnt u realize
What i needed; What i wanted
How cudnt u? How cudnt u?
How cudnt u feel
My feelings; My desire
How cudnt u? How cudnt u?

No you cant stop me now
Coz i've left urworld
& started to live my own

I'm leaving'' gudbye

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Role Models and Their Bongs


"Legalize it - don't criticize it
Legalize it and i will advertise it
Some call it tampee
Some call it the weed
Some call it Marijuana
Some of them call it Ganja
Legalize it - don't criticize it
Legalize it and i will advertise it
Singer smoke it And players of instruments too
Legalize it, yeah, yeah
That's the best thing you can do
Doctors smoke it Nurses smoke it
Judges smoke it Even the lawyers too
Legalize it - don't criticize it
Legalize it and i will advertise it
It's good for the flu
It's good for asthma
Good for tuberculosis
Even umara composis
Legalize it - don't criticize it
Legalize it and i will advertise it
Bird eat it And they leave it Fowls eat it
Goats love to play with it" --- Peter Tosh




















So lets get our role models speak for themselves ::::


"Two of my favorite things are sitting on my front porch smoking a pipe of sweet hemp, and playing my Hohner harmonica." - Abraham Lincoln (from a letter written by Lincoln during his presidency to the head of the Hohner Harmonica Company in Germany)


"Hemp is of first necessity to the wealth & protection of the country."- Thomas Jefferson, U.S. President


"Make the most you can of the Indian Hemp seed and sow it everywhere."- George Washington, U.S. President"We shall, by and by, want a world of hemp more for our own consumption." - John Adams, U.S. President


"Penalties against possession of a drug should not be more damaging to an individual than the use of the drug itself; and where they are, they should be changed. Nowhere is this more clear than in the laws against possession of marihuana in private for personal use... Therefore, I support legislation amending Federal law to eliminate all Federal criminal penalties for the possession of up to one ounce of marihuana." - Jimmy Carter, U.S. President


"I inhaled frequently. That was the point." - Barack Obama, U.S. President


"The war on drugs has been an utter failure. We need to rethink and decriminalize our nation's marijuana laws." -Barack Obama, January 2004


"The illegality of cannabis is outrageous, an impediment to full utilization of a drug which helps produce the serenity and insight, sensitivity and fellowship so desperately needed in this increasingly mad and dangerous world." - Carl Sagan, renown scientist, astronomer, astrochemist, author and TV host


"Why use up the forests which were centuries in the making and the mines which required ages to lay down, if we can get the equivalent of forest and mineral products in the annual growth of the hemp fields?" - Henry Ford, whose first Model-T was constructed from hemp fibers and built to run on hemp gasoline

"It is the perception, Its about flooding your mind so that your unused parts of brain can come to some works, And not as cheap class as people tends to perceive it." -- Omdeep Piya ( Omdeep Piya is not a celebrity or famous person yet."

"Prohibition... goes beyond the bound of reason in that it attempts to control a man's appetite by legislation and makes a crime out of things that are not crimes. A prohibition law strikes a blow at the very principles upon which our government was founded" -Abraham Lincoln


"The prestige of government has undoubtedly been lowered considerably by the prohibition law. For nothing is more destructive of respect for the government and the law of the land than passing laws which cannot be enforced. It is an open secret that the dangerous increase of crime in this country is closely connected with this." - Albert Einstein quote on Hemp


"That is not a drug. It's a leaf." - Arnold Schwarzenegger, Governor of CaliforniaLet's end with a quote from one of the most clueless U.S. Presidents, who evidently thought of himself as an authority on cannabis:


"I now have absolute proof that smoking even one marijuana cigarette is equal in brain damage to being on Bikini Island during an H-bomb blast" - Ronald ReaganPerhaps with all the evidence coming out that marijuana may help prevent Alzheimer's, it is possible that Reagan's affliction could have been halted or prevented by the herb he so vilified. The powers that maintain the illogical status quo for marijuana's illegality are feeling a seismic shift beneath their skewed logic and paranoid rhetoric. When scientific research is unambiguously and evenly applied to marijuana, the current laws and prohibition cannot and will not stand.


On a side note, sales of the bong that Phelps used are through the roof so in case you're in the market for a Roor Little Sista Ice Masta 3.2, you may have a hard time finding one. However, with marijuana being one of the biggest cash crops in our country, you surely won't have a hard time finding something to smoke in it....


"If the words "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness" don't include the right to experiment with your own consciousness, then the Declaration of Independence isn't worth the hemp it was written on."- Terence McKenna----------

A few facts about Hemp, in case you were wondering:


The first Bibles, maps, charts, Betsy Ross's flag, the first drafts of the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution were made from hemp.


80% of all textiles, fabrics, clothes, linen, drapes, bed sheets, etc. were made from hemp until the 1820s with the introduction of the cotton gin.


It was legal to pay taxes with Hemp in America from 1631 until the early 1800s.Refusing to grow Hemp in America during the 17th and 18th Centuries was against the law.


You could be jailed in Virginia for refusing to grow hemp from 1763 to 1769.Rembrants, Gainsboroughs, Van Goghs as well as most early canvas paintings were principally painted on hemp linen. In 1916, the U.S. Government Dept. of Agriculture predicted that by the 1940s all paper would come from hemp and that no more trees need to be cut down. For thousands of years, 90% of all ships' sails and rope were made from hemp. The word 'canvas' is Dutch for cannabis. The hemp plant produces up to four times more cellulose per acre than trees. Hemp cultivation and production do not harm the environment.


The USDA Bulletin #404 concluded that Hemp produces 4 times as much pulp with at least 4 to 7 times less pollution. Hemp fuel is non-toxic, biodegradable and does not contribute to sulfur dioxide air poisoning.In Feb. 1938, Popular Mechanics called Hemp a 'Billion Dollar Crop.' It was the first time a cash crop had a business potential to exceed a billion dollars.The following information comes directly from the United States Department of Agriculture's 1942 14-minute film encouraging and instructing 'patriotic American farmers' to grow 350,000 acres of hemp each year for the war effort:'...(When) Grecian temples were new, hemp was already old in the service of mankind. For thousands of years, even then, this plant had been grown for cordage and cloth in China and elsewhere in the East. For centuries prior to about 1850, all the ships that sailed the western seas were rigged with hempen rope and sails. For the sailor, no less than the hangman, hemp was indispensable......Now with Philippine and East Indian sources of hemp in the hands of the Japanese...American hemp must meet the needs of our Army and Navy as well as of our industries......the Navy's rapidly dwindling reserves. When that is gone, American hemp will go on duty again; hemp for mooring ships; hemp for tow lines; hemp for tackle and gear; hemp for countless naval uses both on ship and shore. Just as in the days when Old Ironsides sailed the seas victorious with her hempen shrouds and hempen sails. Hemp for victory!' Victory indeed.




Thursday, May 14, 2009

I'm Sorry

"'I'm sorry, Its all that I can say

You mean so much and I'd fix all that I done if I could start again.

I'll throw it all away to the shadows of regret

And you would have the best of me" --- Sum 41

I realized I don't love you, the day you said yes you loved me too' and it was then I loved you deeply and hated you strongly...




You know, I tried convincing you that, what I felt for you was my pure love for you and I swear, it was. Nevertheless, I didnt stop myself from trying to make you feel the same.. And finally, you realized you loved me too.. But, what hurted me the most is, this quote - 'a man love thru his heart, but Woman, thru her ears' - came true. You didnt realized your love all by urself, unless they bloomed your ears with the words that described my heart, which i was unable to express myself properly.. You know I'm a shy guy... Love happens, people said; but was that the love, you expressed? Your love made me question your mind. You started remembering your past, and put your today aside, drifting me further from you but then you told me you loved me too, and I could'nt withstand those numerous thoughts that haunted me.

The moment I came to know your love, happiness and sorrow struck me at the same time. I bet you could'nt even realize my sheepish smile, that moment.. Those awkward thoughts that ran through my mind, those convos we had, it still haunts me; it still makes me wonder wot love is..

From then, I, as a formality kept showing my love and affection to u.. Formality, in the sense that I was masking my confused mind and hurted heart with my love for you. It wasnt much of a formality but it wasnt much of my love either. I didnt have the power to tell u wot i felt inside. I smiled and pretended nothing was wrong... But, I was dying inside.. I never tried to make you sad.. But, believe me, I'm an honest man, I could'nt stand those lies, I was lying to myself. Lies! Lies! Lies everywhere and I cudnt stand it... And then we got broke.

Relationship apart....



Time passed by, Life went on....

After course of time, I realize that Love can be grown, Love is grown. Now, sometimes I think I did a great mistake by breaking our relationship apart. I couldnt realize that love grew on u.. I began questioning your love without realizing your past, without realizing what you felt; the love you grew for me.. The affection you planted for me and instead I cut ur plant all because of my ill-thoughts. Now, I wonder if I cud take it bak to the same old days and start over again.. I know I've hurted u and knowing I hurted u, that hurts me even more. Now that we've completely stopped ourselves from contacts, I wish if we can talk for a while, look into each others eyes and embrace each to show that we care. But, I cant. I fear. I don't have that courage to face you. Everytime I see u and u turn away, I see the mistake I made and believe me, Its just that tears do not flow buh inside my fragile heart is crying. I begin vizualizing the moments we had, those good old memories that I'll cherish all my life.. Now, I wish if we could get back together and start our happy life but even if things has changed, I just want to convey you that I'm sorry! I'm sorry for all that I've done.



Truthfully, I want to be with you, but I never will. *sigh* This hasn't affected my dating life, honestly. I'm still as active as ever, but when I'm at home, lying in bed, you are what I think about. Still..

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Nepal: Ten Years From Now








Every year or so, at school, we'd have to write essays on topics like 'what would you do if you were given a million dollars,' 'if you were the prime minister,' or 'your vision of Nepal 10 years from now.' Some of us cringed at the site of these topics and some of us delightfully let our imagination soar as we penned down fantasies which we knew would never come true. Manoj Gajurel chose to visualise it. In his Nepal Nirdesh comedy series, put the last topic into visual format for all of us to laugh at and contemplate.

Well,I dream of a change, a revolutionary change through out the country.. This photos are derived from http://www.wavemag.com.np/issue/article3105.html and this is not just merely a sarcastism towards the situation of Nepal today, but also a silent encouragement to do something. To bring about change, To bring about Progress, To bring about revolution and form the wanted New Nepal..

Watch the video

There I See A Girl...


I am in a somewhat crowded club. I am standing beside the sofa leaning over the wall. I am looking into the crowd of people, some dancing, some talking, some drinking and smoking and some just seeing things around like me. There I see a girl. I think she is beautiful, so simple yet so attractive, so moving yet so still, so cute yet so hot. I like her. Oh, yes, I pretty much like her. Of course I feel that I want her. Don’t know what it is, probably a love at first sight? Or may be just an attraction? Whatever it is I know I like her, I feel like talking to her, And, more than easily, comes that much-familiar feeling of embarrassment; that I must talk to her and I don't know what to say.

I look at her again n again, I see her every moves, her every emotions, her every expression and she notices that I am doing so. I feel embarrassed and shy. Nevertheless, I feel a strong urge to have a talk with her. Damn, I want her. I begin thinking some possible pick up lines. 'Hi', for example. Ok, then what? I can hardly imagine something smart and something original. 'May I buy you a drink?' - sh*t, it's outdated. 'May I join you?' – Better, but a bit '70's style. What bout somewhat flattery like "What it feels to be a most beautiful girl in the club?" Shit I can hardly imagine right and wrong, how to approach and what to talk?

The time passes by. She looks at me for a second time. Wow, I gotta do something, man! My friend urges me to go on. 'Go and talk to her, tell her anything; a stupid pick up line is better than nothing! Yeah something is better than nothing. At least you tried. At best, you may lead to a more relaxed and smart and flirting and love conversation and end up together! Go on, you bast*rd, move!'.

No I can't. I sit where I am and do nothing. I buy myself another drink, tell jokes with my friend, she swiftly looks at me for a third time, and after haven't noticing how the time passed by, she picks her coat and her female friends up and there they're gone.

Bye, bye, happiness!

Happiness in the sense of getting loved, but in the sense of trying?? OF being free from the filthy fear. Of being a free human being that can do what he wants (without hurting or offending others, of course). Of being able to do things for his life, of being able to freely bloom. This is what definition of happiness implies in my dictionary.

Thereafter, the joy of the party is over, the joy in the club is over. We are out and at way to my room. When at room, I try to analyze the reason why I didn’t do it. What did I have to lose? At worst, I could have faced rejection. But, by not approaching her, by not reacting, I got a 100 % rejection. Not from that girl, but as a result of my worst enemy: my fear. Guys are teasing me for not approaching what I wanted. Dang it. So what? I didn’t reach to her. Not of a problem guys. Ok, I‘ve acquired some fears. Also, I have all the natural fears of rejection that resides in most of us – men, women and kids. Not just me, you fear too. Everybody fears. I comfort myself with these feelings. Yeah I don’t just fear her; I fear every stranger and even used to fear those strange nannies who took my care when my ma and pa were working, when I was child. Yeah I fear every stranger and of course you guys do that too. I felt I was acting right but even then I knew it was some kind of virtual comfort to my heart while the reality was I feared to approach a girl I wanted, I liked, I wished to be with. Then I realize that yeah that the combination of above fears, the natural fears of being with a stranger and approaching them was what made me stand where I was, without acting and thus ruining my evening, my coming week and making me feel somewhat similar fears and embarrassment in similar situation in future. I obviously don’t want to repeat this anymore.

I am sleeping guys. I pick up my mobile, put on the headphone and then lie on the bed. I keep thinking and listening to Red Hot Chili Peppers’ Snow. (Ah, at least I have few collections of good songs. I keep browsing my phone and then listening to various songs, and then come Usher’s Yeah featuring Ludracris). Uh, this reminds me of the club. Damn it. Lately some thought occurred to my mind. Is it the above fears that prohibit me from flirting with a strange woman or is it something else?

I mean, is it possible that I am afraid not of rejection but acceptance, instead? That is, I subconsciously thing: ‘Ok, she doesn’t send me off. But she’s better than I can handle. She will make me think of her all day long, she will make me be jealous, she will make me offer her expensive gifts all the time, she will be too good to love and thus I will mind of not losing her, etc.’ In other words, I think I am not good enough for her?? She stands on somewhat ‘higher’ level than I can handle? Perhaps that was the reason I didn’t approached?? Perhaps I felt like she is way to good looking than me? May be like I wasn’t a fit for her? (Here comes System of a Down’s Toxicity. Ah well this is good...)

Well I begin visualizing the possible solution for all us, fearful guys and resolve the problems of fears and embarrassment. Why is she better than you? Is this true, or do you tend to perceive yourself on a lower level than the one you really are? Ok, she’s much pretty, but you may be smarter. After all, looks aint everything. She may want good gifts, but what about the gift of good love? She will offer you back. She might not be any beast, or any filthy whore, looking for men and money and diamonds, but have compassion and understanding, instead, in store for you! She may be joyful and you guys like moderate situations, but damn it – she’s in a club to have fun! What would you expect her to do? She may be there for the same reason you guys are there. She may be somewhat low, talking to her friend, but her low mood might be due to absence of a happy man (like us fellas!!), standing next to her. So You’ll never find out what she is, unless you try to do so. She may be very impressive or too well dressed for you. Blame you for not caring much for your clothing; but blame you most for not tying to approach her.

She may be a thousand other things, but unless you make your legs walk and your mouth speak happy and flirting words and your eyes unleash all your natural attraction towards her, you are never going to know her and be with her or date her. If you don’t let yourself free from fears and comparisons, then you will never enjoy being with her. And that’s the most important thing I will do from now on. Next time I enter the club’s door, I will let myself free from any perceivable fear of girls I might have. I have no more time to waste. I have to love and take good care of myself. Nobody else in the world will do so for me.

STOP PAYING DUES TO YOUR FEARS

Realize this: The things you regret the most are usually the things you don't do

Friday, May 1, 2009

Shan-G-rila

i can think, but i cannot write
i can't explain, u wud not understand
this is not how i am
i have become comfortably numb

As i walk slowly following the ladder, i get more n more into the insignt.. Sweet music all around, there i see a lake, beautiful blue lake upon which reflection of sky has added extraordinary perfection. And that lake where each one have their own perception to see it . As my legs moves, i see butterflies flying, those squirrels on the green, aww and those birds, so colorful .. Its such a nice place. its heaven, its peace, peace within a noise.. A sweet noise.. OMG! Are there those Angels taking bath on that waterfall? They look so fine... I begin walking.. And im enjoying every steps of travelling.. Huff! Balla top ai pugyo.. Thakai lagyo tara journey ramailo thyo.. Hmm! Wow this place's great.. Feels like home within a home.. Great.. Umm now imma about to sleep now.. And the bed im lying on now is Mj cloud.. Goodnite guys.. But let the music play!!